Ok so here is a brief history of my problems I created. I have been with my wife since 2002 in high school. I joined the Army an dwhile at one of the training centers I cheated on my wife who was at the time my fiancee. the girl got prenant and I covered it up with my wife for 6 years. It came out 2008 not at my own will which makes it even worse. We have struggled with that ever since and I know how bad that hurts. When I finally met my oldest daughter last year it was the first time for my family and I. This was hard on all of us and I felt like it was over. My wife and I had a fight one night and she told me to leave and come back when I love my family and want to be there. At the time I was upset and wanted to "prove" something. I really f'ed this up though because i fell to evil talking with this other woman. At the time i feel she was there for me when in fact my wife was trying to be there for me. Once again my wife found out through a source other than me and this time she left. Nothing happened with the 2nd other than talking inappropriately to each other. So that is a very brief outline of all of the problems I have created.
I am very fortunate that my wife is still wanting to work this out, but has told me to figure it out. She has asked me to read two books, which I have struggled through and go to counseling. I went to counseling for a while and was always wandering when it was going to be my wife and I in there and not just me. I didnt understand that I needed to change myself. I understand now and have made changes for the better.
I am really remorseful for what I have done and want my family back.
urrently not doing counseling, but plan to start back asap. I am going to make this a goal to myself to finish the first book by the beginning of next week.
The second book she is going to get it for me on kindle.
If anyone has any suggestions on how to get through this. Please help. All opinions are welcome.