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whatdoto (original poster member #28555) posted at 8:36 PM on Friday, June 7th, 2013
I'm so sad. The realization that my PA WH doesn't get it. Won't get it and can't get it. I'm done.
I have an appt. on Monday to look at a possible rent house in the town where DS goes to HS. It's right down the street from my work.
WH only thinks about what he wants in this M. He won't address any things I want and need from him in this M. He ignores it and tomorrows a new day. I'm lonely, I'm sad.
Soooo, I'm putting my bitch boots on and moving on. I'm scared and nervous. I've never been like that, ever. WH's A has rearranged me.
I know I can do this, but shit, I'm 53 in a few weeks with a 15 yr old son and single parenting again.
Oh well, onward and upward.
Now, to figure out what color boots to wear! LOL
"If your ideal image of yourself is in the future, it's going to stay there".
ZenMumWalking ( member #25341) posted at 8:43 PM on Friday, June 7th, 2013
Me (BS), Him (WH): late-50's
3 DS: 26, 25, 22
M: 30+ (19 1/2 at Dday)
Dday: Dec 2008
Wanted R, not gonna happen (in permanent S)
Used to be DeadMumWalking, doing better now
Faithful w/Love ( member #33128) posted at 8:56 PM on Friday, June 7th, 2013
Of course you can come in.
Big hugs to you and I am proud of your courage to be here.
BS(ME)41 WH(HIM)38
DD 21 and DS 16
Separated Aug 2012
Moved back home Oct 31 2013
Separated again June 2014. Heading toward divorce.
False R. Still Lying.
"You never know how strong you are until being strong is all you have left"
dmari ( member #37215) posted at 9:36 PM on Friday, June 7th, 2013
Welcome and sending you big hugs! I'm so sorry your WH doesn't get it but I am so proud of you for doing what is right for YOU! That's huge! You say you are lonely, sad, scared and nervous ... all are completely understandable and normal AND the most important words in your post "I KNOW I CAN DO THIS ..."! You go girl ... you have a plan and we are here to support you!! Put on your bitch boots and GO!! BTW ... what color did you chose?
whatdoto (original poster member #28555) posted at 12:34 AM on Saturday, June 8th, 2013
Thank you everyone!
dmari - Fire Engine Red! I'm on fire! LOL
I need ya'lls support to keep me focused. WH's PA tendencies, tend, of course, to make me feel guilty.
I want so much to leave. I have to.
WH has had 2 A's. I'm not willing to gamble with my Joy, what I deserve.
Please send the GREAT SI mojo that Monday works out and I get to rent the house. The owners only holdback is that I have two dogs. My dog and my grand-dog. DS29 is due back from Djibouti in Jan and will go on to complete his Degree in Plano.
Thanks ya'll!
WDT
"If your ideal image of yourself is in the future, it's going to stay there".
nowiknow23 ( member #33226) posted at 1:08 AM on Saturday, June 8th, 2013
Sending you mojo for Monday, honey. ((((whatdoto))))
You can call me NIK
And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be.
― Sarah McMane
Strongmama ( member #33062) posted at 4:23 AM on Saturday, June 8th, 2013
Sending you strength and mojo too for Monday. What a strong and brave AND SMART woman and mom you are! You deserve so much more, and it sounds like you're gonna rock those red bitch boots. That's no way to live, and it sounds like you have a plan.
(((Hugs!)))
SBB ( member #35229) posted at 2:36 PM on Saturday, June 8th, 2013
Sending you all the mojo I can muster friend.
None of us want to do this but we all can and do. The first steps are the hardest - soon you'll be dancing the jig and twirling a baton.
((whattodo))
I may have reached a point where I'd piss on him if he was on fire.... eventually!!
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