I just want to remind newbies to take the message of caring for yourself in this trying time very seriously. It is really hard, but you MUST do it.
Since I went NC with my WW, there isn't much to share. I am very very sad at my treatment in the aftermath. She is not even close.I feel lost and alone. I just read how to help your spouse heal after an affair. It is really good. Short and direct. Why can't WW just get it? Why isn't this a book she is looking at on her own? I also need some help from you, my SI friends, on ways to stop obsessing over this? I try to keep busy, but every minute I am alone, all I do is think about it, read about it, post here. It all consuming and I fear whats ahead. I know it will be a rocky road no matter what, but I am pretty certain my WW will be SO uncooperative in D, that my life will be hell.
My other thoughts and question for you all is how to deal with other married friend couples? I told a couple that I am friends with and they were awesome and ultra supportive, but in the back of my mind I wonder if couples look at me in a way that I am bringing infidelity into their lives? Anyone else have that feeling?
[This message edited by Shockedman at 7:05 PM, June 8th (Saturday)]
"Affairs are not mistakes, they are a series of deliberate choices." - CrappyLife
"Regret is when you realize you broke your own heart.
Remorse is when you realize you broke someone else's." - Bla
When I discovered my H was having a serious affair, I stopped eating. I didn't mean to, but somehow I couldn't swallow anything past the lump in my throat. I ended up with a seriously messed-up stomach. I couldn't decide whether I'd rather have the earth open and swallow me up, or if I rather have it swallow him up. I finally settled on the latter.
That was some years ago. First I found my spine, and then my self-esteem. I realized that I couldn't ever change him or make him behave like a decent human being. All I could do was take care of myself and my kids.
All you can do now is take care of yourself and move forward. It will get better.
in time it will pass.
Shocked, it's not so much bringing it into their lives as it is reminding them (in general) that "life's unfair"...
When you're in the earlier stages of healing, and the trauma is fresher, people tend to feel uncomfortable, & I've noticed they don't quite know why...
I didn't experience it with any friends, though.
Attaching to you,
getting to be friends with yourself is a sure way to help you detach from toxic people & the pain of it all.
Be well, take care of you.
but I am pretty certain my WW will be SO uncooperative in D, that my life will be hell.
Your life is already hell. And it will stay there until you decide to end the hell. Yes, D may mean it gets more hellish, but you will walk through that storm and emerge from the other side of it. Standing put in hell, just means that you stay in hell. Someone here has a great tagline that I like a lot. If you find yourself in hell, keep walking.
Keep posting and venting here. It's so early that if you weren't all tied up in this f-ing mess that your WW put you in, it would be abnormal. But start looking at what YOU want to do as well. Find something physical to eat up your time and make your muscles sore. It will help I trained (and over trained) for a 3-day 60 mile walk. Find something that you can do to help get your mind off of your life for just a while every day. And keep coming back for support.
And drink lots of water, eh? No more stones!
D-Day, June 10, 2012
I hope you are feeling a bit better physically at least.
Keep on drinking lot and lots of water.
Let us know how you are.
Regarding your question about not obsessing over it. That's a tough one. Have you read up on the 180? That may help. Also, try to think about what you liked to do prior to garbage happening. Did you have any hobbies? Or do you have any interests that you may want to explore? My best advice is to think about yourself and do what you love to do. If you always wanted to go hiking...go. If you loved to shoot pool...do it. By doing this you'll be pushing her garbage out of your head and filling it with something positive as well as making new friends that are "outside" the marriage and will not feel obligated (for lack of a better word) to pick sides as some people tend to do. It will be like a fresh start for you. It will also give you a boost in self-confidence which is something all BS's need.
I hope some of this helps.