We were in the car going to pick up pizza for dinner. I was driving. The song "Forever My Lady" by Jodeci came on. He used to sing that to me all the time. So he grabs my hand and starts singing. I felt the tears coming. I pulled my hand away then asked him to change the channel. He did immediately.
On the way home, I told him that the words to that song now seem hollow and that I was about to cry. That I didn't want to cry tonight. He apologized and said he'll never sing it to me again. I said maybe next time I won't trigger.
So now, he's being quiet. Staying away from me. Before we left, he was sitting with me on the couch, rubbing my leg. I'm on the couch now while he's sitting in the chair.
I've told him in the past that when I trigger I need him to tell me he loves me. To hold me. Most days he's very good. Tonight not so much...