I'm sorry for your hard time. I have it too.
Nothing in the world is quite as it was-glittery things don't shine anymore and I have many, many nights to face alone. In this situation, Perv also made a big stink to change the weekend visits from every weekend to every other and it is messing with our daughter's head, as well as creating more broken promises I have to watch her go through.
I just wanted to say in my lengthy way that I understand what you're saying. People push me to go out, though not so much as my pregnancy is getting later in term, but people were pushing that quite early on.
I'm glad you got out a little even though it's not the same and I'm glad your WH realized you are living your own life now, VB. Sooner or later we have to, or we rot.
I have a struggle also with making small talk, as my world is crashing around my head people want to talk about anything but "it" and I get that. I just can't put it away so easily.
I had shock the first times they went on their visits and I was so uninvited. DD said she cried knowing I was home and asks me each visit what I did and it feels very sweet.
I think you did a good job filling in the time, FWIW. I try to do a little but also some rest before she gets back because she's so active.
I wish you peace.
And I agree with the other posts, especially about the arms...the first night Perv snuck out to OW, he tucked us all in as he used to, gave his "I love you's", sat and held me in his arms and was out the door soon after.
It's cost me emotional turmoil but I know I can't rely on a person capable of such deceit any longer and I hope you will get there, too.Ashland 13
You gave me nothing and now it's all I've got - Bono
A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess
Perserverance and spirit have done wonders in all ages.