I have been cheated on by 3 different men, and I have more DDays than anyone ever should. I am here, just trying to pickup the pieces.
Today, my sister and I were going through pictures for our wedding slide show (we're making a DVD with music and kid pics of us). We don't have as many pictures of him as there are of me (he is camera shy), and he doesn't have any public pictures online (no FB account, etc...). I remembered that he had some pictures in his email attachments that his mom had emailed him previously. So, for the first time in months, I signed into his email.
It was bitter sweet. The good news: absolutely nothing gross in there that I would be upset about. As far as I can tell, he has been 100% honest about email, and not searching for other women online in over a year now. It is great to have that confirmation every once in a while.
The part that made me sad? In his old (really old, before we met) sent mail, there were emails from women that he met up with and chatted on craigslist with (and emails from ex's). I didn't open them, that was before we met and not what I was in his email to do. But it reminded me of what he did, and it sucked. :(
So bitter sweet update today. We are doing well, not fighting, and almost done with wedding planning- just getting the final touches, and coordinating done. He took DD to the pool, which was sweet, and they needed bonding time (she is sometimes really clingy on me and it hurts his feelings). I'm not going to let triggers ruin my day.
"What did you expect? I am a scorpion."