I feel like I've put so much of all this behind me, but she's gone through "I" little more recently and it just triggered so much in me tonight.
To know me, you wouldn't believe it; but when I was married we planned SO much. From the way we'd raise our kids (I'd be SAHM, this church we'd go to, I wouldn't work - he would) then once he met OW and all that went out the window.
Tonight I just want to send him an email saying - FUCK YOU, shitbag!!! You fucked it all up!
(not just from convo w/ sister but conversation I had with our 13 and 11yo this past weekend). They were mad at me, then I got upset (I can only do so much) and DD13 said to me - "You have NO idea what we've been through, mama!" and she's right. I don't know and I feel lost - I've tried all this time only to fail it seems.