It's been quite a while since I've had this out there. I know it helped me through the darkest points of my healing journey. Maybe it will help a few of you too who are early in your healing process. This is the mantra I literally read daily until it became who I was.
I made a terrible decision which caused more pain than I can possibly imagine and has no possible justification.
Yet that decision and the moments associated with it are linked to a single season of my life. We go through dozens of seasons in a lifetime, each presenting the opportunity to choose right or wrong behavior.
My life is not defined solely by my A. While it will forever be a part of what I have done on this earth, I have been given an opportunity to enter the next season of my life and make the right choices.
I commit myself now and forever more to focusing on what it will take to make Wells and the girls my top priority and to make them happy. I know that the more I give them, the more I will be able to move away from my season of pain and toward a season of hope.
I am accepting responsibility for the A and everything it has done. But I am also forgiving myself, knowing each day I give pure and total love to my family will be my sign that I am defined as a man of integrity and honor.