(((Erika)))
Honey your hurt is palpable. I get that you feel completely broken, and will never be the same again. But that is not always a bad thing. You will learn from this, you will become stronger, and wiser.
You sound fairly young, you have many years ahead of you that will be fufilling.
As far as he goes. God knows what he is doing, and his acts of faith are just that, acts. So trust in faith, and know that he will get what's coming to him sooner or later.
A few things that will make this easier on you, read the healing library up there on the left side of your screen. Focus on yourself. Make sure you are eating and sleeping, if you are not able to do these things go to your Dr and let them know that you are having a horrible time, and get some antianxiety meds. In addition take control, over feeling dirty, by getting the STD testing done and over. This will help you feel better, and remove doubt of the what if's.
Be kind to you. Rely on friends, and family for love and support.
Get yourself into IC. Work through your feelings.
You should be proud of yourself for leaving. Now block him from your life, your phone, your email, everything. FTG, he is unworthy of someone as smart, brave, and awesome as you. Keep telling yourself this. It is true.
Learn to be happy with just you. You don't NEED a man, and a man will be lucky to have you. When you accomplish this it keeps you from being attracted to the Aholes of the world, and allows you to be the choosy one.
Welcome, and make sure you do one nice thing for you each day.
((((and strength)))