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 abbeyunsure (original poster new member #39535) posted at 4:12 PM on Wednesday, June 12th, 2013

I'm not sure this is the right place for me. I'm happily married to my H for 6 years. I haven't found out anything yet, I only have suspicions, which I hope are wrong.

Sometimes when he's working late in his home office, the conversation seems a little too friendly. And then he sometimes closes the door. He says he's doing this so he won't disturb me, because he feels guilty that he has to work so late.

I did ask him about it, not in a confrontational way, just wanted to know if there was anything I should worry about. He told me I had nothing to worry about, and that it's "just clients". He was not evasive, and I have no solid reason not to believe him.

But it's nagging at me, and I feel like I have to know. If there is something going on, i hope with all my heart that he would tell me the truth about it. But I have to be aware that he might not. So how do I find out? I've read about people spying in different ways, with software, audio recorders, etc. I'm not sure I could do that. Isn't that just as bad? Is it legal?

I desperately hope it's just my insecurities, but I need to know for sure so my doubts don't eat away at me. That could be as bad for our marriage as an affair, I think.

abbey

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sadtoo ( member #2027) posted at 4:17 PM on Wednesday, June 12th, 2013

Welcome so SI.

One thing I learned early in my journey was to always, always, always, listen to my gut. it was always right.

There is something nagging you that something is wrong. You need to listen. If he is up to something, you won't get the truth from him.

You need to quietly find out on your own. If you discover it's nothing, no harm, no foul. But you deserve to know. Personally, I would either install spyware on his conputer or if he's talking on the phone, put a voice activated recorder in his office in a hidden location that you can retreive later.

Good luck.

*I survived Infidelity*

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Nailinmyforehead ( member #38427) posted at 4:21 PM on Wednesday, June 12th, 2013

+1 on the voice activated recorder. At least you will know one way or another.

"Son, you've got the future- shining like a piece of gold, but I swear as we get closer- it looks more like a lump of coal"

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truetou ( member #22809) posted at 4:27 PM on Wednesday, June 12th, 2013

yes...do the VAR...wish I would have done that...when they start acting "strange or out of character" you know something's up. Wish I would have paid more attention.

Check cellphone bills too for odd numbers and repeatedly called numbers at odd time of the day...usually evenings.

sorry u have to be the detective but good luck with it.

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LivingALie ( member #17217) posted at 4:42 PM on Wednesday, June 12th, 2013

I would go with your gut. I do have one question - in the 6 years you've been married - has something like this nagged at you before? Or has he ever "felt guilty" before now about working so late?

If not - I'd say there's your red flag - change in behavior. I'd definitely go with the var - then you'll know.

[This message edited by LivingALie at 10:42 AM, June 12th (Wednesday)]

Me: BS
H had LTA with co-worker
Both mid-50s
Two sons - grown and on their own
DD - April 2010
Please note registration date is not correct. See my profile for details
Status: Your guess is as good as mine.

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sportsfan ( member #9918) posted at 4:42 PM on Wednesday, June 12th, 2013

Sorry that you're here, abbeyunsure.

Absolutely place a VAR in his home office ... A's usually start with "innocent chatting" and then move forward. If he's in the "innocent chatting" stage and you can detect it then you can address it with him in many different, non-threatening ways. This could save your M.

If you realize that you were mistaken then there are no worries.

If you don't use the VAR and also don't somehow trip over something that indicates or proves he's in some stage of an A then you may be spending a lot of time here on SI soon.

Always trust your instincts ... the best of luck to you.

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meplusfour ( member #38958) posted at 5:33 PM on Wednesday, June 12th, 2013

People who have nothing to hide, hide nothing. Trust your instincts and check this out. I wish I had.

BW (me)42
WH 44
3 daughters, 1 son
Married 10 years, together 13
DDay 3/14/2013, four year PA
In R
"Sometimes you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to the way they used to be."

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divergurl ( new member #39480) posted at 7:08 AM on Thursday, June 13th, 2013

I hope I'm wrong,

I had all the same nagging suspisions over my WH and his behavior! When I did confront him the first time(he was falling asleep and called me OW name) he lied his ass off!! I have since learned to go with your gut!! It is almost always right! I am soRry you are having these suspicions, if he is having an affair just know that in the short time I have been here SI has saved my sanity and given me some amazing advice!! Start hacking his phone, email whatever you can and get a voice activated recorder and stash it in his office!! But above all know if he is cheating no matter how hard this is you will come out the other side!!

Me BW 37
WH 38
OW 40+ never married desprate cow
Married 9yrs together 14
DDay may 6/2013
2 kids 7 & 3
Recovery started june 11/13

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Take2 ( member #23890) posted at 10:25 AM on Thursday, June 13th, 2013

Abbey, as distasteful as it may be there is only one way to know for sure what, if anything, is going on.

I hate the idea that we live in an age of nanny cams, and keyloggers on a pre-teens' computers - until you see what some of them have caught in the nick of time, and that they have saved a kid's life... then I think Thank Goodness for the nanny cam - 'cause how else would the parents have known...?

When something is pinging a warning alert, it can often be so subtle you can't even name what it is: a fleeting look, an odd hesitation... Now - Does it make sense that a man who feels "guilty" about having to work so late is having overly friendly (and thereby extended) conversations while doing it? His words and actions aren't adding up. If he felt guilty, he'd get off the phone as quickly as possible! Does it make sense that a man whose wife has asked him if there is something she should worry about - then starts closing the door when he is having those conversations? NO.

Investigate. If a VAR proves there is nothing amiss - great! Because you are right: the suspicion isn't healthy for a marriage. If it proves there is something spinning out of bounds - at least you can confront it and deal with it and perhaps save your marriage. (But should you need to confront - come back here for some do's and don'ts first!!!)

Frankly, your only other option is to stick your head in the sand, hope for the best, and to try and ignore the red flag. If you've read here at all - you've seen where ignoring red flags can land you.

((abbey))

"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." Joseph Campbell...So, If fear was not a factor - what would you do?

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James518 ( new member #39497) posted at 11:36 AM on Thursday, June 13th, 2013

I am sorry you are going through this. If you have suspicions, you need to act. And act now! VAR is perfect. Do deserve to know, one way or the other. Be strong!

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pewpewpew ( member #38116) posted at 1:58 AM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

Bump for update.

I hope you are wrong.

I am so sorry if that's not the case.

But we can help.

BS - 32
DDay 1: July 2012 - EA with COW
DDay 2: March 2015; same COW

Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, pack your shit and get out.

Fool me twice, now what?!?!

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Jospehine85 ( member #35971) posted at 3:34 AM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

How late is "working late"?

If he's closing the door and chatting with clients after 7pm, that is pretty weird. Most people have left work and gone home.

There are other signs to keep your eye out for. Has he passworded his cell phone? Does he protect it and carry it all the time? Has he started working out or losing weight? Dressing nicer?

Consider a VAR like everyone suggested. It may seem like an unpleasant invasion on his privacy, but what you are suspecting him of is a much worse "offense".

There are twoo possible outcomes:

1. You discover he is NOT talking to clients and he is in an affair or doing something else he is trying to hide from you.

2. You discover he IS talking to clients and now you can STOP worrying

Get the VAR. Get the issue sorted out so you can either stop worrying or stop being used. Continuing to do nothing except worry is not good for you and not good for your marriage (if it turns out your husband is faithful).

Me - BS
WH - old
Kids
Dday May 2012

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RockyMtn ( member #37043) posted at 3:51 AM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

This is s tough situation.

I agree on the VAR thing. If he is "clean" and there is no A - are you going to tell him you got a VAR? I'm really just asking here because I totally agree that worrying will kill your health and probably harms your marriage. And, obviously, an undiscovered A harms your marriage.

But dishonesty does as well. If he's NOT cheating, and you keep the VAR from him...meh, that's dicey.

When an A may NOT be going on, I think the betrayed partner must think through how they will handle the situation in an honest and fair way after the fact (if no cheating is discovered)...especially if the partner being spied on has done nothing to warrant distrust. Simply shutting the door does not equal untrustworthy. I realize that someone who has nothing to hide won't be worried. But VARs probably aren't the best solution to maintaining trust in a marriage that hasn't been marred by betrayal.

Having said all of this, I agree that a sudden change in behavior is worrying.

Me, BS, 30s
Him, WS, 30s, Steppenwolf
Kids: Yep
D-Day 1: September 2011, 6 week EA
D-Day 2: January 2013, discovered EA was a PA; there was another PA in 2010. All TT.
Goal = serenity.

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Ladyogilvy ( member #31558) posted at 5:00 AM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

Work calls after 7pm could be nothing if they are east coast and he has west coast clients. But, gut instincts are too often right. Only one way to know for sure. VAR. Even if it's just "a little too friendly," it's worth talking about boundaries. "Staying out of the zone of danger." That's what my WH called it before he had an A.

[This message edited by Ladyogilvy at 11:00 PM, June 14th (Friday)]

Me: BW 57. Him: alcoholic, sober now, WH 65Married stopped counting after too many disappointing anniversaries. Two sons, 24&25 years old. He's still keeping secrets and only admits to what I have indisputable evidence of.

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LonelyHusband ( member #34145) posted at 2:07 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

There's a simpler solution if you are not sure about a VAR yet. You've already let the cat out of the bag in terms of your suspicion, so I'd go ahead and rock the boat a little.

You tell him you are worried. You tell him you are frightened. And you tell him to just give you his phone. There. On the spot. Now. Not after a few minutes, but right there and then. You do't let him out of your sight so you know he is not deleting anything. Tell him that you are sure you are just being paranoid but just need to put your mind at rest.

If he gives it to you without question or fear, with perhaps a bemused expression on his face, then it's innocent. Any fear, any anger, any delaying, and you know damn well he's hiding something. Even if he's been deleting stuff he'll panic a little that he's left something on there. At that point I would turn my request to see his phone into a demand.

The VAR is definitive, but not everyone feels it's the right path for them.

[This message edited by LonelyHusband at 8:08 AM, June 15th (Saturday)]

Reconciling.
“A wizard is never late. Nor is he ever early. He arrives precisely when he means to".
Apparently not an appropriate reason for coming home drunk at 2AM.

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Daisy312 ( member #36813) posted at 4:51 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

Like everyone is saying, trust your gut and investigate. I had suspected something was off the first week my h. Started sleeping with the ow. I kept dismissing it. 6 months later I caught him red handed. I so wish I would've listened to my gut and caught him sooner. I would do the VAR and also really pay attention to him.

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Ashland13 ( member #38378) posted at 5:35 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

Yes, your gut is also your "Jiminy Cricket" and I think there's a reason we all have those.

One of the behavior changes that Perv did was to spend massive amounts of time in the bathroom and if I asked if he was sick, he got very, very angry at me and turned beat red.

He also got to a point where no one was allowed anywhere near his phone and prior to knowing OW, both DD and I would play those little video games on it-as he got in deeper into the A, that phone was glued to his hand or pocket. It was also passworded as were his computers, though he wasn't working so no excuse there. He would also very quickly shut his computer screen if laptop or minimize the screen if a desktop if one of us was in the room.

Other things too, like spending more and more time "alone" and not in a room with one of us or sitting near us and staying up later and later.

Any change in behavior could be a clue.

I wonder if there's a way to know if this "talking to clients after 7 pm" is several clients or one?

I hope things turn out ok and think the VAR/keyloggr good, too.

Ashland 13

A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess

Perserverance and spirit have done wonders in all ages.

-George Washington

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jjct ( member #17484) posted at 11:56 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013

abbey, could you access the phone bill?

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trebleclef ( member #33488) posted at 6:40 AM on Monday, June 17th, 2013

This might be a place to start before you jump into digging:

108 signs he's cheating

www.survivinginfidelity.com/forums.asp?tid=471278

Go through this list with a fine-toothed comb, writing down anything that comes to mind, with specific examples. If the results are alarming, start playing private investigator until you know what you are dealing with.

Keep in mind that the evidence is for YOUR benefit and security of mind,'not to convince him. Cheaters have an uncanny ability to deny even black and white proof. It's so that if you need to, you can simply say," I know you are seeing someone else. Doesn't matter what or how I know, or what excuses you may give me. I know. And here's the consequences....."

Good luck. And big (((((((hugs))))))

True remorse isn't followed by a "but".

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jo2love ( member #31528) posted at 12:29 PM on Monday, June 17th, 2013

abbeyunsure has not been online since Wednesday. We will unlock her thread for now, until she returns.

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