I'm even considering a drive up to where OM and WW worked together (he still works there) and where they met up. No agenda, just need to see it all again. WHY?
This shit can eat you alive. I have to remind myself it's over and to move on and focus on the R that we have now. We had lunch together today and it was nice. As I drove off she called me and said "Thank you for lunch". That made me so happy.
Married for over 15 years
2 beautiful boys in elementary school
You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them. Maya Angelou
Thoughts are with you on this shitty day.
We had lunch together today and it was nice. As I drove off she called me and said "Thank you for lunch". That made me so happy.
Remember this, hang on to this!! It's what I believe I must do too. It's shit cos it's so damn hard but we can do it - we must!!
I am fighting the mind movies all over again, and have had to start anti anxiety meds. I feel like I'm back in years one. Hopefully we can fight through this and make it to the other side. Hopefully WH doesn't give up and say this is too hard. Hopefully I can regain some control over my thoughts again. I want to enjoy my husband, my marriage, my life again. I plan to keep plodding along and to keep with with WH and our MC. Hopefully I will someday accept that this is my life.
W is unhappy, but wants to stop the pain in me and try in our M. I think she's depressed actually. I on the other hand feel like I don't have security, like I'm plan B for her, like she has to drag me along. huh! Hate feeling like this. I've always been a proud husband, father and man. Now I feel like she has to stick with me cause D is too hard, like all my amazing qualities don't matter to her and as a man, failed!
If anything, I need to fight these thoughts and be proud cause I did not have an A, I was faithful, I did my best. Not perfect, but did my best.