I guess we have to fight the thoughts and mind movies and all that. I think the worst part is that there is no justice or no big prize for us. And yet now we are left with all the pieces of our M and have to work at putting them back together. Yet we did not have an A.
W is unhappy, but wants to stop the pain in me and try in our M. I think she's depressed actually. I on the other hand feel like I don't have security, like I'm plan B for her, like she has to drag me along. huh! Hate feeling like this. I've always been a proud husband, father and man. Now I feel like she has to stick with me cause D is too hard, like all my amazing qualities don't matter to her and as a man, failed!
If anything, I need to fight these thoughts and be proud cause I did not have an A, I was faithful, I did my best. Not perfect, but did my best.