In the past, I was prone to panic attacks but could work through them. Long time spent thwarting them and IC and all that.
I am angry because they have returned and what I can pinpoint now is they come when I know Perv is in the vicinity or in contact electronically.
With the school year ending, DD has had lots of activities for me to attend and Perv is trying to be Model Dad and Model Citizen Perv again. I'm angry because I've had several occasions at the end of year events for her where I panic-literally-and have to hide. I also find myself just about running to get out of the place and it takes a good while to calm down once I'm home again.
With being pregnant this is not good, nor are antidepressants an option and I don't do well on them...I'm so angry that they have come back and wonder if any of you have them happen if you have to be in similar spots and possible contact with Ex's and if there's a timeline for how long this will last?
I had to post pone IC for a while because I cannot pay, and she only takes phone calls about one time before she will charge and I've used that already-and I understand bc it's her time and service.
I finally am not attracted to him any longer and have feelings of contempt and disgust, so I don't know why this is happening? He causes a confrontation during nearly every interaction, so am I maybe anticipating a problem?
Thank you for any ideas...I can't stand it.
A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess
Perserverance and spirit have done wonders in all ages.