In the last month, I've been trickle-truthed more than I can stand. I've gotten about 6 "this is everything, final confessions". And then I find out more. From what I can gather, he's cheated on me with prostitutes and hook-ups from adult friend finder, ashley madison, and craigslist for our entire marriage. He's put us in financial ruin, and squandered hundreds, maybe even in the thousands.
We've gone to one marriage counseling session, and he has already lied there. He's gotten angry and blame-shifted his problems to me. I was so scared that I took my son and stayed at a friends house for the last few days. I've kicked him out of the house, and I'm now back home.
I'm tired, I'm heartbroken, and I'm so confused. My whole marriage has been a lie, and I had no idea, he hid his secret life so well. In hindsight he had always been selfish, and somewhat irresponsible, but I had no clue what was really going on.
He's still messing with my head by sending me texts saying he misses me. I think he misses having his cake and eating it too. I'm not longer willing to be a possession of his to use. And that makes him angry. I've seen rage and hate in his eyes.
He uses my Christian faith against me, even though he claims to be one himself. When DDay first happened, he told me that the bible said that I had to forgive him. At that moment I was so shocked, that I refrained from telling him what it said about lying and adultery.
What a mess!