I have been feeling really, really low lately. FWW has been remorseful, said and did all the right things early on, but doesn't really want to talk about it anymore (3+ yrs out). She doesn't say, "Get over it already," but that's the general attitude.
The only counselor that seemed to help me moved away in December and I have been sliding back into feeling nothing but disbelief, hurt, and inadequacy.
We have 4 kids that mean the world to me but I can't bring myself to trust her again, not just sneaking around mistrust, but emotional trust. I don't believe in her or how she feels about me anymore. Sex has all but ceased completely and I feel very alone. So very alone.
This woman meant the world to me. Who does this to people? Who willingly takes a hand in destroying two families? How can you say you love someone and then do something that utterly destroys them, unless you never really loved them at all? I hate my life and I hate myself.