I just want to give people who are going through the first days some hope. I'm only 56 days since D day and I'm not 100% ok. I'm still hurt and confused but the extreme pain, shock and desperation from the first weeks are gone, thank Lord!
During the first days I couldn't function at all. Now I'm not constantly hurting. I used to have a pain in my chest that would not go away and it was even hard to breath.
I'm still thinking about leaving my H. I still can't see reconciliation for us and I keep thinking and planning my life without him in my mind.
Things I have done that I think it helped:
I bought some audiobooks and they were amazing. Audiobooks are great if you are having difficulties with concentration and focus.
I started IC, but I'm not very happy with how is going overall.
I started to take St. John's Wort and I believe that have helped me tremendously with depression and anxiety.
I joined a gym started to work out.
I started to go to a spiritual meetings and Alanon meetings.
I'm searching for jobs.
My husband wants reconciliation and even though he refuses to talk about what happened I believe this is helping me.
I just wanted to give some hope for people that are going through this. Hang in there everyone because it does get better