Hi (((defeatedlost))). I am so sorry you have to be here, but it is a wonderful place to be if you need support, encouragement, or just a shoulder to cry on. We have all been where you are now. Even though the stories may be different, the pain is the same and we have all felt it at one time or another. You are not alone.
I also still cry sometimes (yesterday) and it has also been two years in Sept since DDay#1. I also thought we had a good marriage and was happy. I had no idea he had been cheating on me for years and suddenly did not know who the hell replaced my wonderful husband with this jerk. I am glad to see that you are in IC. I don't know your story or the state that your marriage is in now, but it does get somewhat better with time. Hang in there and read the articuals in the healing library in the upper left corner. There is lots of really good information there. Others will be along to welcome you to our corner of the world. Holiday weekends are usually slow, so don't get discouraged if it takes a while to get replies from other posters. Maybe take some time to write out your story so others will have a little more info as to where you are now and what you have done so far. (((HUGS)))