Anywho, I'm still stuck in paradise, but we no longer have to live together. We did get the temporary restraining order, based on the conversation recorded by MOW's BH, and we got a continuance on that, so our hearing will be next week.
We don't have a custody evaluation set up yet, and I'm not sure if that's because he's going to refuse to agree to one or because he's trying to drag things out for as long as possible. The judge will order one if we ask, and we will, so I'm not sure what sort of strategy this is. They've done formal discovery requests asking for my therapist's notes, my medication list for the past 3 years, the results of any psychological testing I've ever had done in my entire life, and a few other things. I don't know the purpose of that, since I've never been diagnosed with anything other than depression, and that was years ago. Even through all this mess now, I'm not and haven't been depressed, so there's nothing to find. And medication...I had a script for heartburn meds during my last pregnancy and after the one before that, and I think they gave me something for a cough or congestion during my last pregnancy. Other than that, I can't even remember any prescriptions.
Basically, I have no idea what's going to happen or how much longer I'm going to be living in Paradise Prison. It's not ideal being kept here, because it's ridiculously expensive and I would like to get on with my life already, but I'm resigned to whatever happens. If I say life is good and they read this, I guess they'll try to do something to make it bad. If I say life is bad and they read this, I guess they'll say that means they should try to do something to make it worse, so that maybe I'll give up. Either way, they'll shit on me, so I suppose it really doesn't matter what I say. There are things to be happy about and things to be stressed about. :)
I've been trying to stick to general, generic posts in others' threads (other than about my MIL sending me a virus, because that was funny) to avoid "poking the bear", in case they are reading here, but I was feeling like I needed a touch of SI support, so there's my update.
Btw...re your tagline...Mumford & Sons totally got me through some of my darkest times. That dude can write, can't he. I actually put some of the lyrics on my bedroom wall, to uplift me. One of the ones that helped me most was After the Storm:
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
You WILL get over your hill, Coraline...with grace and flowers.
[This message edited by SadMad2012 at 10:14 PM, June 15th (Saturday)]
If you need to, you can private message anyone you want on the forum. It might be easier to do that, they can't read your private messages without having your ID and password.
I am glad you posted.. I was wondering about you. Sounds like things have improved slightly... and are looking to be finalized soon.
my husband and the OW say that he needs a new strategy because it's "getting worse" and they could only mean I was feeling BETTER (because I was) and I think they were reading here to get that impression. And the new strategies they talked about were just more abuse. Basically, if it was working, he would amp it up, and if it wasn't working, he would...amp it up.
Damn, that is shitty! Devilspawn!
Your are one smart cookie, hang in there.
((((Coraline))))you will prevail.
And HEY Mr. Coraline and OW, UP YOURS!
Never forget what is worth remembering or remember what is best forgotten.
I second Kajem's suggestion of OM.
Mods, I do wish we could have multiple recipients of PMs.
Hopefully one day soon you won't be quite so important in their lives. Right now you are the 'glue' holding that leaky ship together. Unfortunately you can still be that glue even without participating - I hadn't realised that until now.
Leave them to their sad lives. Brace yourself for what is to come and remind yourself that no matter what he pulls nothing is as bad as still being in a relationship with him.
[This message edited by fallingquickly at 11:17 PM, June 15th (Saturday)]
I saw him, I could not unsee him. -StrongButBroken
There came a point when it was too painful to love him, so I stopped.
We are here for you! We don't need updates. Just check in every now and then and let us know you are okay. You can update us when it's safe to do so. Stay strong, you'll get through this.
It is what it is.
Separated, divorcing, moving on.
I edit because I always make typos.
You can do it :) You have been incredibly brave honey keep going.
Douche & OW will get theirs!
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"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."
I hope you have seen improvement in your daughter since he's been gone. I'm willing to bet you are feeling alot more at peace now that he is out of your space. And thank goodness for MOW's BH!
You'll be fine!
PM me anytime. I know what it is like to be married to a sociopath, manipulative, serial-cheating military man...all while 1000's of miles away from home and dealing with crazy-making.
I've made a huge mistake - GOB
Mumford and Sons in my tagline too. :)
D-Day, June 10, 2012