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Topic: Feeling Trapped
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AFrayedKnot
♂ 36622
Member # 36622 |  Posted: 6:17 AM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 |     |
I am feeling really trapped today. No matter whether we stay in R or go our separate ways, we will always be connected through our DS3. There is no option for complete freedom.
He was not planned. He was not an "oops". He was conceived through lies and secrets.
About a month after a confrontation about AP#3, my fWS decided to stop taking the pill and not tell me. She says she was not intending to get pregnant. She says it was not manipulative. But here we are.
It could have been a relationship changing event. Bringing us together. Truly becoming a family, a team. But no she continued contact with AP#2 and AP#3 and two years later added AP#4.
Sorry for the rant. Happy Fucking Fathers Day to me!!!
PS This has nothing to do with our beautiful DS. I love him with every bit of my heart and soul. I am grateful for him every day.
BS 42
fWS 38 (SurprisinglyOkay)
DsD DS
A whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better.
"Knowing is half the battle"
Posts: 2859 | Registered: Aug 2012 |
wifehad5
♂ 15162
Member # 15162 | | Posted: 6:24 AM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
{{{Chicho)))
FBH - 45
FWW - 46 (BrokenRoad)
2 kids 10 & 15
The people you do your life with shape the life you live
Posts: 46586 | Registered: Jun 2007 | From: Michigan |
AFrayedKnot
♂ 36622
Member # 36622 | | Posted: 6:49 AM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
Same to you (((WH5)))
BS 42
fWS 38 (SurprisinglyOkay)
DsD DS
A whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better.
"Knowing is half the battle"
Posts: 2859 | Registered: Aug 2012 |
painpaingoaway
♀ 27196
Member # 27196 | | Posted: 6:55 AM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
I'm so sorry you are suffering Chico.
((((Chico))))
Me, BS, 58
Him, WS 61
D-Day June 2009
Watch my movie: "My wayward husband's adventures in STD land":
Episode 1: youtu.be/9Jv0-d_CdYc
Episode 2: http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8Tz822H82Gk
Posts: 7192 | Registered: Jan 2010 | From: Coastal South |
sisoon
♂ 31240
Member # 31240 | | Posted: 12:24 PM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
(((Chicho)))
fBH (me) - 70+, fWW, Married 45+, together 45+, same sex ap
DDay - 12/22/2010
Recover'd and R'ed
I share my own experience because it's all I know.
Posts: 16257 | Registered: Feb 2011 | From: Illinois |
karmahappens
♀ 35846
Member # 35846 | | Posted: 12:37 PM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
I am sorry you are feeling so lousy today.
((((hugs))))
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
Anaïs Nin
Me: 45
Him: 47
Dday 8/2007
We have R'd
Posts: 4012 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Massachusetts |
5454real
♂ 37455
Member # 37455 | | Posted: 2:16 PM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
sorry you're here today brother. focus on your son today.
strength
BH 53, WW 45
DS 25(Mine),SD 24,SS 23(Hers),DS 12 Ours, DGS 6, DGD 2
D=Day #1 5/04EA (Rugswept)
D-Day #2 3/10/12, TT til 3/13/12
Married 13yrs
“I have no love for a friend who loves in words alone.”
― Sophocles, Antigone
Posts: 5410 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: midwest |
jo2love
♀ 31528
Member # 31528 | | Posted: 3:30 PM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
(((Chicho)))
Posts: 50372 | Registered: Mar 2011 |
Neithan
♂ 35924
Member # 35924 | | Posted: 3:40 PM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
Wow. That takes betrayal to a new level.
At least you can enjoy your son. You can choose to focus on that today.
Me: BH
Her: WW
D-Day: 2/19/2010
Married 1981
That which does not kill me makes me more irritable
Posts: 426 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Among the Gaurwaith |
AFrayedKnot
♂ 36622
Member # 36622 | | Posted: 8:41 PM, June 16th (Sunday), 2013 | |
So obviously I woke up miserable today. I must have been processing something in my sleep or dreaming and not remember it. But I woke up in a really bad spot.
After I wrote this post we talked pretty deep for about an hour, read painpaingoaway's poem in general, got the boy up, and went about our plans (Pic in New Picture thread F/G).
It ended up being a good day today. The past did not rule my life today. It had me for a couple of hours but that was it.
Thank You all for the (((hugs))) and support. The email notifications throughout the day helped a lot.  [This message edited by Chicho at 10:02 PM, June 16th (Sunday)]
BS 42
fWS 38 (SurprisinglyOkay)
DsD DS
A whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better.
"Knowing is half the battle"
Posts: 2859 | Registered: Aug 2012 |
catlover50
♀ 37154
Member # 37154 | | Posted: 5:20 AM, June 17th (Monday), 2013 | |
Good for you!!
Dday -9/23/2012
Reconciling
Posts: 2287 | Registered: Oct 2012 | From: northeast |
wifehad5
♂ 15162
Member # 15162 | | Posted: 8:30 AM, June 17th (Monday), 2013 | |
The past did not rule my life today. It had me for a couple of hours but that was it.
It's a good feeling being able to tell the past to fuck off, isn't it?
FBH - 45
FWW - 46 (BrokenRoad)
2 kids 10 & 15
The people you do your life with shape the life you live
Posts: 46586 | Registered: Jun 2007 | From: Michigan |
SoVerySadNow
♀ 36711
Member # 36711 | | Posted: 8:53 AM, June 17th (Monday), 2013 | |
((((Chico))))
Infidelity affects all corners of our lives, heads, and hearts.
I'm glad the happiness of being with your DS put your day right.
Me:BW
Him:WH
D-day(s),after years of TT and Gaslighting was Labor Day Weekend 2012, continuing for a week after. *Dammit! More TT 3/9/13
Really trending toward D- planning about it is my "happy place" now.
Posts: 1292 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: Sunny Florida |
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