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AFrayedKnot posted 6/16/2013 06:17 AM

I am feeling really trapped today. No matter whether we stay in R or go our separate ways, we will always be connected through our DS3. There is no option for complete freedom.

He was not planned. He was not an "oops". He was conceived through lies and secrets.

About a month after a confrontation about AP#3, my fWS decided to stop taking the pill and not tell me. She says she was not intending to get pregnant. She says it was not manipulative. But here we are.

It could have been a relationship changing event. Bringing us together. Truly becoming a family, a team. But no she continued contact with AP#2 and AP#3 and two years later added AP#4.

Sorry for the rant. Happy Fucking Fathers Day to me!!!

PS This has nothing to do with our beautiful DS. I love him with every bit of my heart and soul. I am grateful for him every day.

wifehad5 posted 6/16/2013 06:24 AM

{{{Chicho)))

AFrayedKnot posted 6/16/2013 06:49 AM

Same to you (((WH5)))

painpaingoaway posted 6/16/2013 06:55 AM

I'm so sorry you are suffering Chico.

((((Chico))))

sisoon posted 6/16/2013 12:24 PM

(((Chicho)))

karmahappens posted 6/16/2013 12:37 PM

I am sorry you are feeling so lousy today.

((((hugs))))

5454real posted 6/16/2013 14:16 PM

sorry you're here today brother. focus on your son today.

strength

jo2love posted 6/16/2013 15:30 PM

(((Chicho)))

Neithan posted 6/16/2013 15:40 PM

Wow. That takes betrayal to a new level.

At least you can enjoy your son. You can choose to focus on that today.

AFrayedKnot posted 6/16/2013 20:41 PM

So obviously I woke up miserable today. I must have been processing something in my sleep or dreaming and not remember it. But I woke up in a really bad spot.

After I wrote this post we talked pretty deep for about an hour, read painpaingoaway's poem in general, got the boy up, and went about our plans (Pic in New Picture thread F/G).

It ended up being a good day today. The past did not rule my life today. It had me for a couple of hours but that was it.

Thank You all for the (((hugs))) and support. The email notifications throughout the day helped a lot.

[This message edited by Chicho at 10:02 PM, June 16th (Sunday)]

catlover50 posted 6/17/2013 05:20 AM

Good for you!!

wifehad5 posted 6/17/2013 08:30 AM

The past did not rule my life today. It had me for a couple of hours but that was it.

It's a good feeling being able to tell the past to fuck off, isn't it?

SoVerySadNow posted 6/17/2013 08:53 AM

((((Chico))))
Infidelity affects all corners of our lives, heads, and hearts.
I'm glad the happiness of being with your DS put your day right.