"Noone can make you feel inferior without your concent." Eleanor Roosevelt
For all of you who are unconnected to your WS, what do you do for connection?
I have an either unremorseful or unable to 'make it right' WS. (Probably qualifys as a FWS). I am the type of person who CRAVES connection.
I miss the physical connection, but I simiply can't live without emotional connection. And, sadly, my husband is emotionally unavailable to me - also to himself. Sad.
But in addition to it being so sad for him to be living his life with an emotional condom on, it is sad, too, for me.
I let him know a few weeks ago that if he couldn't give me come connection emotionally, that I would have to get that need met elsewhere.
I don't want to have an EA. I do not even consider having a PA. But I am so empty. I can't live without connection.
I wish there was a resourse for this - other than keeping busy, getting involved, etc. I need a partner - a person who sees me on the inside. This is what my WS was to / for me before we started to grow apart - and all this infidelity crap.
Until her recent death, I actually used my dog for this outlet. She knew all my secrets, and always knew when I was sad. Always there for me. But she recently died, and it was my fault. So that's another sadness.
Any concrete ideas for what to do with this need?
I don't want to put my kids in the position of filling this need - besides they are teenagers and don't like me most days. Raising my kids as a stay home mom has put my family in the center of my life and now that they are teenagers and my husband and I are so distant, I just feel so alone.
I am so very lonely.
Thank you all for being here.
[This message edited by WhatsRight at 9:50 AM, June 17th (Monday)]
I will not be vanquished. Rose Kennedy