Sorry you're so down.
If you haven't talked to your WH about how you're feeling, then go ahead a do so. Rage at him if you feel it necessary.
Get those feelings out. They're like a poison eating away at your soul.
FWIW, I hit a MAJOR anger stage around 5-6 months, and many other people on here did as well. Its possible that's what headed your way. If so, hang on, it does get better, although it seems like it never will.Me: BS
Trust is like paper. Once it's crumpled it can never be perfect again.