I wrote this email to my BH last night. He said it meant a lot. And I meant every word.
Hi Mr. M
I just wanted to tell you that I Love You. It’s like I can finally see clearly. The fog has lifted. I want You and I want our marriage to work and be better than before.
I have learned a lot about myself and am very grateful for the counseling I have received. I see the terrible choices that I have made. How some of those choices started out so “innocently”, and thru time progressed to more emotional reliance (or dependence or addictiveness). And so went further into worse choices, and worse betrayals.
You are a wonderful man. I Am So Grateful That You Did Not Give Up On Us!!! You deserve so much better than you have received from me. And I want to make it up to you. I am going to continue to work on myself and us, through reading and counseling, journaling and reflection, and being open and communicating.
I am truly sorry that I betrayed you, our love, and our marriage vows. I almost let go of the best thing that has ever happened to me, having You in my Life. You and our wonderful daughters.
We have been thru a lot together, and I do hope and believe that we can get thru this too. With changes on both our parts, honesty, transparency, being genuine, we are on a good path to a wonderful future.
Love You Honey