so i really been on a roll and probably almost got my WH blown up at work.
Ive been sending very hateful txt throughout the day everyday i cant seem to hold it in .
so today he seems really quiet i come to him ask "whats up' he tells me" well im just going with the tone you set your happy im happy your upset im upset" .
i told him "if im upset you made me that way you cant expect me to be happy and kiss all over you after what you did to me"
he goes on to say " i understand that believe me thats not what i expect , but you cant stomp on me all day then act as you did nothing" "why if you feel badly cant you just come and talk to me , like grown adults"
He feels he is the only being positive and sadly our MC thinks hes the only one doing the work too . that im the one being hateful and withdrawing from the relationship , hell maybe i am. I've never been cheated on if i did i never found out and would careless if that were the case because i was only ever in two sexual relationships and only one of them would matter which is this one my marriage.
for every little thing he says i want to interject something like a "well you should of thought about that shit when you blah blah blah" then he rolls his eyes and says" yes, i should have but im doing this now and we need to stay positive im changing the way i do everything and blah blah blah"
i guess i can see why i seem like the reluctant spouse......my WH has a way with words and man he can seriously mind fuck you !!!!! trust that anyone reading this you can be seriously mind fucked by him . I mean i feel he mind F**** my MC because she is telling great thats progress yes your right thats how you move forward .
on another note i feel like WH got our MC lesson plan because somehow before our meetings we discuss what we should be doing and how and when going into MC its almost as she was just repeating what he had already discussed with me.( he would turn to me and smile and say "didnt we just talk about that")
so it comes down to hes the only one really working on himself (which he has really has changed drastically ) but i have remained the same only to add jerk to my personality trait (my words, not his) i dont know how to change , or if i want to (scratch that i do want to ) but yeah i dont know how.
he is afraid that I maybe be disconnecting at least thats what he sees from the outside. Im not aware of that .