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anonymous823 (original poster member #39433) posted at 4:36 PM on Sunday, June 23rd, 2013
So I obsessively Google my F and the OW because I first became suspicious of their affair when I Googled him and saw she was following him on a social media site and commenting on his page. He was not on hers.
The page and email account associated with it have since been deleted by him but I still Google my F and the OW every day. Her page is still active and I worry I might discover them linked on social media again. My F's behavior doesn't suggest that but I'm now hypervigilant.
Is this bad for R? I think it's a compulsion that stems from the pain and I'm trying to prevent myself from being the last to know again. It's starting to give me more anxiety though and I don't know if I should stop or not. Any advice would help greatly.
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UKlady ( member #39058) posted at 4:45 PM on Sunday, June 23rd, 2013
Personally I'd say do it while you feel the need. I have also done this in the past and still do occasionally. I think it is a stage which occurs for some of us and you hit the nail on the head when you said you are hypervigilant.
In time, I believe, the compulsion to do this will lessen as long as your F shows true remorse and is doing all the right things in respect of R.
Me: BW 45
Him: WH 48
Married: 6 years, together 9 years
D-day: 3 January 2013 - he confessed.
A: June-Dec 2012
No children.
HardenMyHeart ( member #15902) posted at 5:19 PM on Sunday, June 23rd, 2013
These are classic symptoms of hypervigilance:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypervigilance
It is fairly normal following a trauma, such as infidelity.
After doing the same things as you, I finally came to the realization that I have no control over someone else's actions and therefore there was nothing I could do to prevent another affair. If my wife cheats again, I'll just to have to deal with it when it happens. Snooping and playing all the what-if scenarios in my mind, just caused me unnecessary stress and anxiety.
What helped me the most was daily meditation and vigorous exercise. I found that by calming my mind, it would help the obsessive thoughts from being blown out of proportion.
You'll find that R teaches us a great deal about ourselves. So sorry for what you are going through.
Me: BH, Her: WW, Married 40 years, Reconciled
Kelany ( member #34755) posted at 5:24 PM on Sunday, June 23rd, 2013
I went through this and in time it has become almost non existant. But I think everyone goes through it.
BS - Me
SA/FWH Him
DDay 1 - Jul 11
DDay 2 - Jul 12
R Dec 12
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Knowing ( member #37044) posted at 1:51 AM on Monday, June 24th, 2013
Are you in IC? If not you could be working some of this out there. I was downright obsessed post DDay. I think it's normal and will hopefully lessen for you at some point. My interest eventually dropped off from daily to weekly somewhere between month 8 and 9.
BW, R last 4 years of marriage out of 15... FINALLY, HAPPILY DIVORCING!
We are in R.
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