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User Topic: Is this Googling a Danger to Our R?
♀ 39433
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Default  Posted: 10:36 AM, June 23rd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

So I obsessively Google my F and the OW because I first became suspicious of their affair when I Googled him and saw she was following him on a social media site and commenting on his page. He was not on hers.

The page and email account associated with it have since been deleted by him but I still Google my F and the OW every day. Her page is still active and I worry I might discover them linked on social media again. My F's behavior doesn't suggest that but I'm now hypervigilant.

Is this bad for R? I think it's a compulsion that stems from the pain and I'm trying to prevent myself from being the last to know again. It's starting to give me more anxiety though and I don't know if I should stop or not. Any advice would help greatly.

[This message edited by anonymous823 at 10:39 AM, June 23rd (Sunday)]

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Default  Posted: 10:45 AM, June 23rd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Personally I'd say do it while you feel the need. I have also done this in the past and still do occasionally. I think it is a stage which occurs for some of us and you hit the nail on the head when you said you are hypervigilant.

In time, I believe, the compulsion to do this will lessen as long as your F shows true remorse and is doing all the right things in respect of R.

Me: BW 45
Him: WH 48
Married: 6 years, together 9 years
D-day: 3 January 2013 - he confessed.
A: June-Dec 2012
No children.

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♂ 15902
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Default  Posted: 11:19 AM, June 23rd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

These are classic symptoms of hypervigilance:

It is fairly normal following a trauma, such as infidelity.

After doing the same things as you, I finally came to the realization that I have no control over someone else's actions and therefore there was nothing I could do to prevent another affair. If my wife cheats again, I'll just to have to deal with it when it happens. Snooping and playing all the what-if scenarios in my mind, just caused me unnecessary stress and anxiety.

What helped me the most was daily meditation and vigorous exercise. I found that by calming my mind, it would help the obsessive thoughts from being blown out of proportion.

You'll find that R teaches us a great deal about ourselves. So sorry for what you are going through.

Me: BH, Her: FWW - Long Term EA/PA
d-day: June 25, 2007
Married 33 years, Together 40 years - Reconciled

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♀ 34755
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Default  Posted: 11:24 AM, June 23rd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I went through this and in time it has become almost non existant. But I think everyone goes through it.

BS - Me
DDay 1 - Jul 11
DDay 2 - Jul 12
R Dec 12

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Default  Posted: 7:51 PM, June 23rd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Are you in IC? If not you could be working some of this out there. I was downright obsessed post DDay. I think it's normal and will hopefully lessen for you at some point. My interest eventually dropped off from daily to weekly somewhere between month 8 and 9.

BW, R last 4 years of marriage out of 15... FINALLY, HAPPILY DIVORCING!

We are in R.

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