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Nice weekend away...now back in my stress bubble

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brokenfinger posted 6/24/2013 09:45 AM

My best friend of 17 years took me away this weekend, to a city 6 hours away, all expenses paid. We have a mutual good friends there.

As I was leaving town, I could feel the stress leaving me,the pain, the not knowing.

I had a great weekend ( I may have had one too many to drink the one night, I threw up in a garbage can lol). It was just chill, had meals cooked for me (not bad for a bunch of bachelors lol). It was one of the simplest, yet nicest times I've had away in a long time.

As we drove back towards home on Sunday, I could feel the stress returning. Th chest ache, the anger, the profound sadness.

I was super pissed when I picked up my kids from their Dad's to discover that once again, he had not bathed them all weekend!!! Shit is infuriating!

My daughter is 12, so after I put them to bed, I took myself to a movie. Which was fine.

Then I got home, made my bed with my new bedding I bought...got into bed...and BOOOM!!! Headshot!! This wave of sadness smashes over me again.

I know this will resolve, but I hate hate hate hate hate hate feeling this way. Lets throw in the fact that I have strong feelings for the friend that took me away, I resent even more the fact that I'm not "supposed" to be with him, and he's at his whores getting his dick wet.

I kinda wanna kick babies and push over old people.

Maybe Ill just go for a run, in the rain, instead lol

jjct posted 6/24/2013 10:06 AM

Go punch a unicorn.
It's safer.

brokenfinger posted 6/24/2013 15:37 PM

Hmmm safer...but too pretty and magical! lol

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