I'm sorry, Butterfly Girl, that's awful.
I share your trigger agony in some ways, because all of our news is out of the next state over except one semi-local channel I can't stand. It's behind the times and doesn't play music I like or DD110 (very opinionated!) likes.
The news on tv is much the same and I can't hear even one sentence without mention of the state where Ow lives and now Perv. I can't even stand hearing it mentioned and I can't stand to see license plates from it, as many people do their errands and shopping in this are for some reason.
I want to figure out how to get over it, because I miss the news in that form. I've found it in other ways, but those were my favorite channels.
Now I am sick to follow it by listening, or to see it on tv with all the maps and to know something as the weather there sets me off.
He has started to talk to DD about it -against my wishes-as an attempt to stop lying to her-and when I hear her say it, it makes the tears come.
I'm sorry too for your loss of friends, for I have that happening too.
It seems like a lot of common things happen, even when A's are not the same details?