All he can say is that "it was fun to fuck someone else"
Well I hope it was worth it to him cause the aftermath of an A is not so much fun.
I know how you feel about not even being a thought in their mind.
Are you in IC? That has really helped me. Also is your WH showing any signs of being remorseful?
The comment above at least proves how selfish he was (and they all are WS's).
But you could be in especially rough shape for lots of reasons, ranging from having difficulty processing your feelings to having and unremorseful WS.
What are you doing to heal yourself? Also, what's your H doing to heal?
Ultimately, i think we have to just accept that they didnt think of us. They were thinking of the AP and getting laid. Very very selfish, thinking only of themselves.
I have struggled this past week d/t thinking that he gave up myself (20+ years), our kids and life for OW, but i dont warrant as much of a sacrifice.
Idk Shattered, i feel your pain too. I'm wondering myself if i can go on. I want to feel special again, as if i am worth moving heaven and earth for.
Considering what our life was like before the A, he has made improvements. Only some though and ultimately, those behaviors are what so badly undermined our marriage to start with. So i feel as if he has tried to improve the marriage situation, but has done little to correct the A. Other than give up the girlfriend.
I'm losing my ability to cope with this.