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huRtZ413 posted 6/25/2013 11:58 AM

im so lost i love my husband very much and want so badly to be with him but damn this hurts i dont want to live like this the rest of my life .

but i dont want to spend my life without him either .


i hate her and i hate his choice i would have never imagined id be in the mess . i wish i didnt love him .


i wish staying was easy i wish leaving was easy . i dont want her to take away my plans that i had for us .


maybe this belongs in general .....


im so angry and soo sad and i hate it all . i hate every man that doesnt know what he has because he is focused on what he doesnt. i hate that we have to pay because their "broken"

mod feel free to move this .

SorrowBhindSmile posted 6/25/2013 12:39 PM

your DDay is so new, so fresh. I am so sorry for your pain. I have felt it. I have felt your feelings of despair. Your post was my post at the very beginning. You are not alone in your feelings.

The best advice i got from this site was to give it time. Dont make rush decisions in this early time. This is the most painful thing you will ever go thru. This is the hardest thing you will ever have to do.

You need to give yourself time to process all your feelings. dont push them down. dont rug sweep them. let them come. face them head on. Talk to your WH. keep the lines of communication open. Go to MC/IC, read books, post on this site.

If your WH is truly remorseful, and shows you with actions every single day, then the pain does lessen. I am 6 months out from my DDay. In the beginning i thought i would die. I couldn't eat, i lost weight, didn't go out, could barely function. i was a mess. devastated. Feeling exactly how you feel.

6 months later, i am stronger. The pain is there, but it is less. Every day i fight. Every day i struggle. Some days i win and i beat the pain...other days it overtakes me. But every day i fight.

Keep fighting. You are not alone. If you love him, if he is remorseful, if he owns his actions and works hard on himself to identify his issues and fix them, then R is possible. If there is one thing this site has taught me, it is that R is possible. It is possible to rebuild, it is possible to have that future you wanted.

keep fighting. you are not alone. hugs to you.

unfound posted 6/25/2013 17:03 PM

everything you're feeling is normal... doesn't help, I know . it's especially hard when the things you're feeling are conflicting. love them, hate what they did.. hard to leave, hard to stay...

time will help. you'll find some solid ground after you get your feet underneath you. for now, take care of yourself. feel what you feel, cry when you need to, find a safe outlet for anger. and know that no matter what, you'll be okay, I promise.

2married2quit posted 6/25/2013 18:01 PM

I feel you 100%. It's the infidelity sandwich. Where you were fed it like it or not. So now we have to figure out if leaving is easier or staying. They both suck especially after building a life together. But relax and remain calm. You DON"T have to make the choice in the next 24hrs. Allow yourself to think. DDAY was just a few months ago. The 1st year is HARD!!

Hugs!!!!

1Faith posted 6/25/2013 18:26 PM

It's not what the WS doesn't have - its about how they feel about themselves.

The ONS or the A makes them feel wanted, attractive.

They don't have to deal with real life of kids, house payments and tired spouses.

You are enough. It's not about you. It's about him giving into temptation.

It's not just men, it's women too.

You are hurting and that is so understandable.

It is a long, hard road and it hurts like hell but you can make it. You will make it.

Going or staying - you still have to HEAL

(((Hugs)))

PrincessPeach06 posted 6/25/2013 20:38 PM

((((Hugs))))

I am angry tonight. For almost 16 years I have been 100% faithful and even though H is doing everything right (now) I still want to scream and throw things. It just doesn't seem fair :(. You are not alone.

guarded posted 7/1/2013 07:49 AM

No advice for you. Just reading all of your recent posts and you just seem to be in so much pain right now. Sometimes we just get into such deep holes that it is hard to feel anything but the pain. Hopefully you can look up and catch a glimpse of blue sky.

Just know that this is normal and will get better. Right now just sucks. There is no other way to say it. Empathy Hugs to you.

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