I struggle every day with the feeling of being empty inside..sometimes I think the void is A related, sometimes i think it has always been there and the difficulties in M have only enlarged it..
I read this and it explains what I feel, not only I have been deprived of the future but also of the past:
So when we experience dramatic loss, we grieve the loss of the whole structure. And I think one of the reasons that we have such a hard time is that not only is the future now the Unknown, but the past becomes unknown to us because it no longer exists. There is a void.