I realized yesterday that I am the only one that cares that my WH cheated on me.
I am the only one that mourns the loss of my husband...the man that I married..the one he used to be.
I am the ONLY one that is hurt by his betrayal.
I am the only one that feels a pain so deep and acute that I feel like scooping my heart out with a spoon.
I realize that the OW's husband might feel pain, and sadness, but then again...do we really know if the AP's spouse feels the same? Maybe they dont care?
I know my WH certainly doesnt feel the impact of his betrayal. He says he never thinks about it. He has told me that he used to feel bad about it but its been so long since that happened (6 months). He thinks it just happened and we are fine.
I KNOW that his coworkers in his department and the people at work dont care. I was told by someone in his dept that there is a rumor going around that they had an affair, but neither my WH or the slut who ruined my life has felt any consequences...they still have the same friends. There was even a friend of the sluts and my WH that told them that he HATES cheaters (she got cheated on) but yesterday still asked my WH if they worked together and why he got moved to another group (he asked to move to make things better for us). Instead of telling her because he WANTED to move groups he told her he didnt know why he got moved. He doesnt make it know that he HATES the slut OW. Because maybe he doesnt.
My parents and family and friends who know about the A dont REALLY care.
I mean why would other people care its not their life.
I just feel crappy that I am the ONLY person that seems to be affected by this. The OW, the whore that she is, gets to keep all of her friends, and keep her "nice person, happily married" reputation that she has and virtually goes unaffected by her being a whore and opening her legs. And my WH gets to keep his family and act like nothing happened. All my family are telling me not to bring it up to him, and to move on.
I hate it. I hate that this person at work (who was supposed to hate cheaters since she knows how painful it is) STILL is asking about my WH and the OW working together like they are a freaking couple.
I hate this. I feel so alone. Every day is like waking up to a knife in the heart.