When I first learned about WH "love" (EA) for someone who didn't want him (supposedly), I was already at a place where I thought I didn't want to be married to him unless we made some changes in our relationship. Being blindsided by his EA confession really sent me into a year long mess of stuff like self-esteem issues, depression, mania and more and when it just got to be TOO much, too much TT, too much "no remorse", I found SI. Between SI and IC, I feel like I am now back where I was when I first found out.
I'll let him hang around until I have a new direction, probably (hopefully) after grad school, I don't trust him, he is most likely a total nut job and if he isn't he IS a total asshole. I am sure a lot of this is happening because due to our past problems I have removed all other buttons he could push. Now this button is gone too.
I truly don't care what he does. 180 isn't about him, its about me. 180 isn't even a "tool", its my new way of life as it was when he confessed last year.
Thank you to all of you at SI who keep this resource available, thank you to all of you that helped me through my cloudy thinking.
Here's hoping I can maintain this and not fall back into whatever hole I have been in for the last year.
I want to give out hugs!
