How the hell did I get here???
Just last week he said he believed we are good, and our M is strong.
Yesterday I told him that we need to put the decision about us on hold. Background: His Mom passed away on Memorial Day weekend (not unexpected) and he has to deal with his siblings. The memorial was agony for us, as our DS was there, and he and NW do not speak to us, and they brought our new DGS.
I told him he has a lot on his plate. And he says "yea, got a lot on my mind". WTF??? Aren't you suppose to share your feelings, and problems, with your fucking wife???? I just nodded.
We have to work together!!! Every freakin' day. I am checking out a broker to sell it, as that has been his goal (he's burnt out). Says he thinks I see him as my meal ticket! WTF!! I'm right here along side him.
I think he will be one of those who will just watch me walk out. No good-bye, no hugs, nada.
I am losing it just typing this!!
over 40 yrs and I am a nuisance to him????
But he still talks of future plans. Why???
Is he really THAT dense??
I so want to find someone to let me know I AM worth something RIGHT NOW!!! But madhatter is not a word I would like to add to my description. (No offense to those who are. It's just not me)
I just cannot put one foot in front of the other. And I WILL NOT say a word to him about this!! NOT NOT NOT!!!!!
What's funny is that I have moved on from his EA. The aftermath is what is blowin' this puppy up!!!!
I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS!!!!
Please help me.