The night he came home (was away working for 8 weeks) he tells me that the very first confession he told me (the ONS) in 2007 was a lie. A lie he told me to cover from the real lie. To this moment, I truly do not understand that whole scene! So, ya, no ONS in 2007, just a 2 night stand with this women in Germany in 1997. So, I live with that information for 2 weeks.
Saturday, June 22, discovered porn on his cell phone, which he had promised me to more porn, that led to more ugly f... sex acts.
Tells me while he was doing laundry, (oh, he says, 3 4 years ago)(turns out to be last year) he met this women, she approached him, he invited her to his room and they had oral sex.
So, this info was told to me just a few days ago. How much can a women take. I am still sane, working and trying to understand, and sort all this in my mind.
I truly felt, I was done with this. Thought, within time and lots of love, we would get through this ordeal!
What he is doing is called trickle truth..it's torture and sets your healing back each time he does it.
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
I am so sorry he is doing this to you.
((((and strength))))
Yet I will tell you that sadly this is just the tip of the iceburg. You will find out more whether he takes the poly or not. But you won't accept it until its time for your brain to digest it all. Right now you think you can manage it, you think he is telling the truth....but deep down inside you are scared and afraid of what you will really find out so you shut down that part.
When you are ready you will know.
