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daisychains posted 6/27/2013 14:02 PM

R in all its imperfection is where we are - however this week I found his "forgotten email address" and forced the password from him -

it's not been a pleasant week

and I got the "I was trying to protect you from more hurt" line


and there it all was in all it's glory - spread out in front of me and hit me all over again: all the time he was talking to her on the emails was time taken away from me and the girls - he was sitting there just waiting for his next fix - his next high and every time it needed a bit more drip fed shit from him to get the ego stroking high from the drivel she emailed back - that's what it was - her ego stroking was his high - not real - not honest - but what drug is - what does it matter when he was physically with her - he was with her all the time in spirit anyway - addiction is addiction - he needed to keep ramping up the verbal diarrhoea to get the high back - I've read it on si before - right from the start I believed utterly that I was not to blame for his choice to cheat - but having finally seen the emails I can shout it from the rooftops - HIS SHAGFEST WAS NOT MY FAULT, I WAS JUST COLLATERAL DAMAGE.

Getting to Happy posted 6/27/2013 14:43 PM

Oh Man Daisychains! What an utter drag!

Your post struck a nerve.

I went data mining and now I am reeling from the info. Found erased emails and a few chat logs and 2 'I love you' videos!!!

It cuts so deep that I am too devastated to start a thread right now.

I feel like road kill that has been set on fire.

Just know that I SO KNOW what you are going through.

I am so sorry that you have to slog through this shit storm.

Stay strong.

Jospehine85 posted 6/27/2013 16:39 PM

he was sitting there just waiting for his next fix - his next high and every time it needed a bit more drip fed shit from him to get the ego stroking high from the drivel she emailed back - that's what it was - her ego stroking was his high - not real - not honest - but what drug is - what does it matter when he was physically with her - he was with her all the time in spirit anyway - addiction is addiction - he needed to keep ramping up the verbal diarrhoea to get the high back

^^^^truth^^^^^

Exactly the same for my WH, except they used Skype.

The ramping up is key though. The AP expects more commitment and the WH escalates the relationship in order to justify their disgusting behavior.

I know my WH and MOW are sick people. WH because he was willing to sacrafice family for that ego-storke. MOW because she was willing to be dehumanized and used as a sex object just to get attention.

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