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User Topic: Mind Shifting
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Default  Posted: 9:05 AM, June 28th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Missed another day of work today, who can concentrate at work when you cant sleep, cant eat and your inside feels like knives are poking at you.

He sent me a text this morning "pls set an appt with the polygraph, I love you, want to be your partner for the rest of my life". He swore again on his children's health, his grandchildren, and his parents heath that there is no more to tell. I did not say much, just listened.

I am so tired, exhausted with this situation, I need to take care of myself. I have a career which requires my full concentration, and I do need to work for another 5 years. And I do need to eat and sleep and give my soul a rest.

I really want to believe him and put this to rest. Last night was unreal, the emotions, the frustrations.

Thank God for all you guys who replied to my desperation. If it were for you guys, I would quit now. But I am not. I am going to make that appt, shit it costs $800. here. But, he will pay for it! Cause if I don't do this, it sure will come back to haunt me and I may not be in a strong mental position to act upon it.

Me - 59 - I often have to remind myself of my age!
Husband - 59
DD1 April 5 2013 (a lie)
DD2 April 23 2013
DD3 June 22 2013
3 children
1 grand child

Posts: 266 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: Canada
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Default  Posted: 10:21 AM, June 28th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Follow through with it.

He will probably tell you "everything" shortly before the appointment,hoping you will cancel it..don't.

I know there's more to WH's bullshit..he has..finally...agreed to take a polygraph. He thinks it's "ridiculous" but will do it. He reminded me yesterday that he swore on his father's grave(he just passed last month,WH was close to him) that he will *never* betray me again..and that I know everything.

So I reminded him that for 2.5 years he swore on our childrens' lives that I knew everything...then out came the TT...that there was a whole other AP/PA that I didn't know about.

They lie. And lie. And lie.

Follow through.

FWH 48
4 kids
M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10

..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.

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Default  Posted: 10:38 AM, June 28th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Schedule it. In all reality, if you get the truth, the complete truth, that he is being honest or that he is still lying to you, it's money well spent. (((hugs))) Please don't forget to take care of yourself.

Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.

D-Day, June 10, 2012

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Default  Posted: 10:44 AM, June 28th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Oh yeah - and don't be surprised that he's probably been Googling "how to beat a polygragh test" every chance he gets when he's on the internet.

PS: he wouldn't be the first - nor the last - spouse who has sworn on their own children's lives that they were telling the truth and were STILL lying through their teeth.

Cheaters are the biggest liars on the planet.

Be careful - that 'knight in shining armor' may very well be nothing more than an assclown wrapped in tin foil.
ME: 50+ years old and cute as a button :-)
Ex-WBF: Just a lying, cheating, gravy-sucking pig - and I left him in 2012.

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Default  Posted: 10:55 AM, June 28th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Stay strong, hun, its crazy making stuff.

It is not uncommon for WS to do a great big purge of their conscience in the parking lot right before the poly appointment...

No matter the result, it is money well spent, (probably even better than a new purse )

BW - Reconciling

edited for typos (I always have to!)

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solus sto
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Default  Posted: 10:58 AM, June 28th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Sadly, there's no "putting this to rest." Even if you know the truth-- which you do not, fully, it's not something that is done, over.

To get "past" this, you have to go through it. This will take a period of years.

During that time, you will heal, incrementally. You will move forward, then back, then forward enough that, over a protracted period of truth and trustworthiness, you have more good days than bad.

Do not rugsweep. It is your impulse because it seems to create immediate relief.

What it actually does is ensure greater, more protracted pain. Trust me on this.

BS-me, 55; WX-irrelevant
Divorced after an eternity
"So much for the past and present. The future is called 'perhaps,' which is the only possible thing to call the future. And the important thing is not to let that scare you." Tenn

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