Missed another day of work today, who can concentrate at work when you cant sleep, cant eat and your inside feels like knives are poking at you.
He sent me a text this morning "pls set an appt with the polygraph, I love you, want to be your partner for the rest of my life". He swore again on his children's health, his grandchildren, and his parents heath that there is no more to tell. I did not say much, just listened.
I am so tired, exhausted with this situation, I need to take care of myself. I have a career which requires my full concentration, and I do need to work for another 5 years. And I do need to eat and sleep and give my soul a rest.
I really want to believe him and put this to rest. Last night was unreal, the emotions, the frustrations.
Thank God for all you guys who replied to my desperation. If it were for you guys, I would quit now. But I am not. I am going to make that appt, shit it costs $800. here. But, he will pay for it! Cause if I don't do this, it sure will come back to haunt me and I may not be in a strong mental position to act upon it.