I'm sorry, China Doll.
This is another thing I've felt.
I would like to feel or know somehow that he had remorse for the complete ruining of our lives that Happy Pants (formerly Perv) did.
"I'm sorry's" come nowadays, but his life is all buttoned-up and ours is living hell without a future, so I think saying those words is easy.
I have a close relative getting married and find that each step of her journey adds to my misery. I've told them it is a trigger, but they are oblivious and sent me photos of her wedding dress when they got it ordered and home.
I look in windows when I drive by the neighbors and see many happy families-or what looks cozy and happy from outside-and it's triggers.
One thing I suspect is the lonliness that comes when they leave, for it was another adult around ...of some sort.
A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess
Perserverance and spirit have done wonders in all ages.