I'm sorry, Peach.
I've had those same triggers for months and the visions in my mind have nearly driven me mad sometimes.
Happy Pants is still with OW in "this" case and it brings fresh tears to think of them off together while I am alone...and he still married and was all the while he knew her.
Yes, HP also mentioned something like that when dday was upon us, "It was supposed to be a fling that I didn't stop." That was one of the elements that pushed me to divorce.
I'm sorry again for your pain.
It's not something I've ever felt before, even with deaths and sickness.
A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess
Perserverance and spirit have done wonders in all ages.