2 years ago this week I made, by far, the biggest mistake of my life. 2 years ago I was the biggest jerk to all of the people that mean the most to me. 2 years ago I was the most self absorbed person on the planet. All I cared about was me and my A.
I have changed a lot in the last 2 years. I'm not perfect by any means but every mistake I make I learn from it and this one is no exception. I will never put anyone above my family, myself included, ever again.
I watch my wife struggle every day with me. She struggles with triggers, trust, and being able to open up to me and I have no one to blame but myself. I hate that I have caused her so much pain that continues to torture her on a daily basis.
The week ahead is what we call hell week. It's the hardest time of the year for her. I took the week off from work to help her, to distract her, and to show her that she is the only one that matters.
I will continue to say my I'm sorry's and I will support her through everything that lies ahead...
You are the one who loves and supports me through everything. I know you struggle every single day, I'm sorry I've made it that way for you. I promise to forever be here for you and never put you through any pain like that again. I love you.
[This message edited by guiltfilled11 at 10:07 AM, July 1st (Monday)]