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User Topic: I will die without you, even though I am dying inside with you.
♀ 32430
Member # 32430
Default  Posted: 2:32 PM, July 1st (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

H and I have had some ongoing troubles lately, nothing at all infidelity related, but seems I tend to revert back to the pain when we are in some kind of emotional crisis.

Today, I went ahead and dug into all the emails we exchanged following dday. In a LONG written email I wrote, I found this sentence.

The truth is, I will die without you, even though I am dying inside with you.

It is just depressing how this was truly my reality then. Catch me on a good day and I will tell you how awesome R is. Today, I am just indifferent as I start to wonder just how much one has to deal with, with the person they married (whether it be infidelity or not).

BS(me) 34
fWH 38 (Epicallyfailedu)
OW/xBFF of 28 years
Four girls under 11
DDay: 6/5/2010

Posts: 2018 | Registered: Jun 2011 | From: Michigan
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Member # 37575
Default  Posted: 3:56 PM, July 1st (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I hear you, your name says it all, "my heart still hurts", isn't that the truth!
I am sorry you are indifferent today but so glad you shared that. I am finding many days to be "indifferent", which I think is sad, just plain old sad.
Thanks and please take care!

Me: BW Him: FWH in our 50's
DDay June 1st 2012
cheated with prostitutes overseas

Posts: 700 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Out West
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Member # 26651
Default  Posted: 8:14 AM, July 3rd (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


If it gives you any hope at all, I can tell you that for us every year up to this one has been VERY hard for us and I found myself going back to that pain often. Within the last few months I've started to come out of that and the pain isn't like it used to be...yeah, it still hurts and it might always hurt, but it's lessening by the day. It does get better, it really does.


Me: BW/33 The kidlets: DS16, DS12, and DD10 The hounds: Three Shih Tzu's The felines: Two short haired kitteh's

Posts: 11775 | Registered: Dec 2009
♀ 39313
Member # 39313
Default  Posted: 5:09 PM, July 3rd (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Your words ring so true.

I hope you are feeling better today.

I'm like a vacuum bag
That holds all that old dirt
Remember that time we said we'd be together forever?
Don't hate me, don't regret me, don't ever forget me
Wherever you go, whatever you do, don't say I never loved you

Posts: 363 | Registered: May 2013
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