I get this phone call from someone I know. She asks how much do I pay my sitter on sat
Okay, let me explain it to you, she says
Her adult dd is in the background giving her info.
Seems her dd had a dream about my baby (hes five) drowing in the pool at the saturday sitters house.
She said the kids walk from the sitters to another house where the pool is located.
She described the yard, pool, deck and how much I pay the sitter.
She describbed the kids bathing suits
All is exact
She said the kids are in the pool. The sitter is on the deck doing something, looks away and thats it. My baby is face down amd the arm floatie is next to him
Lately ive been afraid something was not right around him.
Ive always felt guilty about how his life started and the termoil that took place during his conceotion and birth
For five mins I didnt want him when I was four months pregnant bc of what was going on in my life
Kid rocks my world. I love him to pieces. He is special. But their is a different connection around him. My dd I feel she will be there forever. My ds ive always felt like I was grasping for him. Like he was not always going to be there
This has me scared. No pools. No creeks without me being there
Im seriously freaked out