my WSO of 18 years left in midMay with no explanation, nada, nothing except a text saying he loved me and always would but something was missing. I was bewildered, stunned, hurt since we had just had dinner and spoke of our upcoming vacation. I found out his reason and OW 2 weeks later. since that time I've been a wreck but in IC.
Therapist is saying i need to have an explanation, something, not just silence. I reached out to WSO and he'd only respond with a text "it's too painful for me to talk right now" Ummm, hello? Painful for HIM???
Fast forward to this past Sunday. i have house emergency that needs attention no exception. I try contacting every guy I know to help plus contractors but try reaching anyone on a sunny sunday afternoon...I had no choice but to contact WSO for help because I needed muscle for the house emergency. He actually says he'll help.
So...Monday afternoon he arrives. We see each other and he acts like I had just seen him 2 minutes ago and launches right into trying to fix the problem at my house.
I start talking to him - of course what he didn't want - and out of the blue he actually said to me "wow, you've lost weight".
Ummm, hello? Yes, you walked out of my life with no explanation. I've barely eaten anything in 1.5 months. Everyone else is asking me if I'm ill...
I talk, I tell him what I feel, what I'd like to see occur with "us" but if OW is still in picture it wouldn't work. He says they are still involved. Then starts in on how "I wouldn't do this, and I wouldn't do that" and "he wasnt sure what he wanted and our relationship wasn't what it had been" blah blah blah
I asked him if he saw him and OW as a long-term relationship and it continuing. He said he wasn't sure, he would never love her like he still loves me, that he envisioned growing old with me, but that he didn't plan to stop seeing her. But since we hadnt been getting along, he didn't know what else to do.
what?? how about talking to me instead of cheating on me
I replied that I will own part of our relationship problems (pre-A) because it wasn't just him, or just me. That I was working through my own issues in IC.
But then I add "but you know what, I will not own your CHOICE for deciding to cheat on me. You alone made that choice, I had nothing to do with it". I repeated that statement more than once throughout the conversation...my mantra
As you say after that statement....crickets.
I asked what caused him to make that decison. OMG, hang on because I can't even make this stuff up. We had had a stupid tiff that night over CORN ON THE COB. he said that is what caused it!
a stupid tiff over CORN ON THE COB is what made him decide to cheat on me? it sounded so ludicrous I almost laughed.
So in summary, from all my SI reading I learned during our conversation that: he is in a deep fog (won't end it with OW)
he is trying to eat cake (he loves me but won't end it with OW)
blame shifting (corn on the cob caused him to cheat)
reinventing history (he made up 3 different versions of the same incident)
he fell silent when faced with indisputable facts (he made a choice to cheat)
the 180 is becoming my friend.
IC is very helpful
the future is unknown and no final decisions will be made yet
thank you everyone,it does help to read the posts and articles. its sinking in. what a horrible way to get to know one anothr but its good to know there are others who understand and can empathize knowing the incredible pain infidelity causes.
and sometimes just to share the dumb things that can be said in life...like corn on the cob made him to decide to cheat. good grief!
Have you secured your finances?
ETA: Have you had a full STD panel done?
[This message edited by Jospehine85 at 9:08 PM, July 2nd (Tuesday)]
..corn on the cob??? HOLY CRAP...that has to be a new one here at SI..
"CORN_ON_THE_FUCKING_COB" ??????????
..that should give you an idea of how thick the fog can get for some WS's
..we've heard 'alien abduction' ..we've heard 'the devil made me do it' ..we've heard 'it was an out of body experience'!!
..but CORN,.....on the COB no less???
..i'd be telling him where he can put that Cob of corn, with or without the butter!
..(((((TheRD)))))
smy
[This message edited by somanyyears at 9:20 PM, July 2nd (Tuesday)]
corn on the cob caused him to cheat
I'm sorry - but what a complete maroon. This has to be one of the most ridiculous "whys" ever on SI. Ranks right up there with the WS who cheated because his wife used too many kinds of cheese in a recipe.
You sound like you've got your head on straight, RealDeal. Sending you continued strength. And hugs. ((((TRD))))
And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be. ― Sarah McMane
Corn on the Cob...
It is a horrible food no doubt. It makes me eat too much butter and salt. It made your WH cheat. terrible terrible corn! Was it yellow corn or silver queen? Did you boil it or grill it? Maybe it was too many silks that made him overly anxious to see his lover?
What a delusional bunch of hogwash!!!
sorry you had to join this wonderful group of support.
(((TRD)))
You can't make this stuff up. you just can't.... it boggles the mind.
Hugs,
K
corn on the cob, and now 'bagged salad'..?????
..that's it!!!! I'm going off all vegetables..
..i'm not taking any chances.. i just hope i don't have to give up fresh fruit or chocolate!!
[This message edited by somanyyears at 9:46 PM, July 2nd (Tuesday)]
Therapist is saying i need to have an explanation, something, not just silence.
I'm betting the therapist didn't think CORN ON THE COB would be the explanation. That is the lamest, stupidest thing I have ever read on this board and that is saying something.
Unfortunately, many of us never get a reason that makes any kind of sense. I know I never did. What I finally got to was an acceptance that this had happened to me, and acceptance that it would never make sense. After a certain point, it no longer matters why - you just have to let it go and move forward. It's so early for you and I know that sounds impossible. It will take time but you will get there. I am also a BS that was completely abandoned - I get it.
As you mentioned, the 180 is your friend- focus on you. Protect yourself - see a lawyer, see a doctor for STD testing. Keep reading, keep posting.
Hugs to you ((Real))
[This message edited by kernel at 9:55 PM, July 2nd (Tuesday)]
Maybe he should joing Kajam's friend husband for dinner.
What an ass.
anybody else snicker when "kernel" posted on this thread??
end t/j
TRD, thank you for posting tonight! This keeps coming back to mind in one of those "you can't make this shit up" ways.
Mine was that I didn't fill the dogs water bowl often enough. Therefore I had lost love and respect for my fWS!?!
You really can't make this shit up,
cg, I more than snickered.
I asked if DD OWUglyIndian cooks or drives.
Nope.
It was the very first big belly laugh I had over this whole mess.
IC session is Monday afternoon so I'll be telling him about corn on the cob.... i can almost guarantee he's never heard that one before
I am definitely looking out for myself and making sure I cover all bases before making decisions.
thanks much for all the support you've given and continue to give. Couldnt be making it thru this without it. friends/family are great but since they've never experienced it, they don't really quite know or understand the conflicting feelings and uncertainty, nor what type of advice to give. they do try but sometimes I don't want advice, just for them to listen and give a hug. and other times I want them to quit asking me all the time if I'm okay. If I was okay, I'd be back to my "normal" self...whatever that is anymore
"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - Aubrie
I'd hate to think what he would have done if you served cream style.
I thought the same thing.
I worked with a woman who was having an affair with a married man. One of the reasons she cited to me as proof that the BW didn't deserve that wonderful man of hers was this - "She buys crunchy peanut butter and he likes creamy." Clearly she just didn't understand him like my coworker, his twue wuv and soulmate, did.
I told her that he was a douche and needed to buy his own damn peanut butter and get over it.
Please stop......ROTFLMAO
