i have always watched Marilyn shows. THis particular one had some scribblings and journals original from her. I had never seen these. It was startling. I have never compared myself to her. In hearing her voice and thoughts, I learned I have the exact same thoughts. Literally. I too was raised without love, although I was in a house with my family, we were very neglected. Its amazing how I could see her mistrust, how love always ends, and people always let you down. You grow to expect it, its been experienced over and over. You are always alone in a crowd. You dont really experience things, because its just temporary.I love my kids with all my heart. They are mine. But others , including my H, can never reach me. My H wasnt in this category. He came thru. It took along time. I thought I could believe him. Now, I cant. Its helping me see why I cant let this go. I thought I was building walls. they were always there. ANd its all still true. I wasnt the type to do this to.