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User Topic: This is how I feel right now <<growl>>
BFFGone
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Member # 38263
Default  Posted: 3:54 PM, July 3rd (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Wrote this yesterday. Sick of living in this new world of weirdness and pain, I turn to writing quite a bit. The following has a few "choice" words, in case those offend anyone xx


Back me into a corner?
Push the envelope?
Threaten the boundaries just that LITTLE bit more?

Hmm.

Watch what happens.

Watch what happens when you push back
Yes, push back

I will lash out at whoever comes near me

I just realized that my cage isn't so gilded
that the kills have all been staged
that my shiny/pretty enclosure is a prison
that the animals I love who share my prison would clamp their jaws on my neck if given half a chance
that the spectators I thought were admiring me are just more dead eyes looking for action
that I'm not who I thought I was

Poke the tiger
Make her move
It's not interesting unless she growls

Well, fuck you
I'll growl when I fucking feel like it
and when you offer me that tantalizing piece of steak to gain my "trust"…
maybe I will purr and let you touch me
maybe I will bite your fucking arm off
maybe I walk away because that meat smells dead like you

You wounded me
You gave me these scars
You took away all that was clean

I like fresh things
I've been fed shit
unknowingly, by you…and I know how it tastes
how it weakened my physical body in certain ways that even my resolve can't regain

I'll kill my own meat now
it's cleaner that way

I like my own space
watch how the enclosure is mine now that I have been left alone
watch how the others scurry
watch them

The spectators want a show
Sorry, folks.
Shows over.

My cubs are all to me
Anyone touch my cubs and they will find out how long a painful death can take
I won't go for the jugular
that would be too easy
and not as fun to watch

I will roar in solitude, but they will all quake when I arrive
not knowing what I can do, but fearing it

Other than that I will be quiet

I realize nothing is safe
no one is safe

I will endure. Lick my wounds. Embrace my scars. Grow stronger than you ever thought possible.

I get who rules the jungle now, motherfucker.


I choose to thrive. I choose to be happy.

That which doesn't kill me makes me stronger...but damn, aren't I strong enough yet???


Posts: 71 | Registered: Jan 2013
crazyblindsided
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Member # 35215
Default  Posted: 5:28 PM, July 3rd (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I will roar in solitude, but they will all quake when I arrive
not knowing what I can do, but fearing it

Other than that I will be quiet

I realize nothing is safe
no one is safe

I will endure. Lick my wounds. Embrace my scars. Grow stronger than you ever thought possible.

I get who rules the jungle now, motherfucker.

Heck yeah! I love the whole thing especially the ending.


BS/FWS (me):40 Madhatter
WS/BS:42 Serial Cheater
Together 18 years, Married 13
DD(10) DS(7)
DDay(s) 5/08, 5/09, 3/30/12
Final Dday 7/11/14 Affair never ended

Posts: 2266 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: California
Topic Posts: 2

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