im confused by the feelings Im flooded with cause I wanted the separation. but here i am, not able to talk to him or never said goodbye... and I am just overwhelmed by saddness, anxiety, anxiousness, pain, hurt, missing him.
why? counselor said its the normal rollercoaster and cause I have only been able to be strong or angry this whole time so now I cracked.
i just feel helpless right now cause I dont know if I will ever see or talk to him again. so in turn i get scared wondering if thats love when I really thought I had none prior.
Im just really scared. these feelings freek me out. and I dont like being not in control of me or even this situation. it feels really bad :(
