Well I think I finally belong down here in NB
I have just got back from a holiday with my kids and it was awesome
The kids had a great time!
We didn't even think of xwh until we were souvenir shopping before departure and a fleeting thought about the crap he used to buy but the thought was more about how I don't have to tolerate his clutter/hoarding anymore.
Xwh tried making all sorts of threats trying to stop us taking this holiday, but I didn't let him control me/us anymore yay me
We have been on holidays since the DDay but I would always end up in tears, a bubbling mess or me putting a brave face on for the kids. Not this time. I didn't need too.
On the way to the airport one of my kids made a joke, it wasn't particularly funny but I was in hysterics I was laughing so much I was in tears. It was that moment right there I realised hey I am ok. I am more than ok. Its been a long long time since I have laughed like that.
Bring on the future I am ready to face it now.
Best thing I gained in my divorce - my freedom.