Scars remind us where we've been. They don't have to dictate where we're going. (Criminal Minds)
My first DD was the one that shocked me. By my second I had a feeling that he was lying and there was more.
The shock of the first and the extent of his betrayal on the second (found out his first story was completely fabricated to gaslight so I wouldn't find out about 5 OW, one of whom was current) were very different but both extremely painful.
I am surprised I can think about them with no tears, only slight discomfort, sadness, and pity at what he wanted to turn himself into.
I saw him, I could not unsee him. -StrongButBroken
There came a point when it was too painful to love him, so I stopped.