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User Topic: I miss a lot...
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Member # 28979
Default  Posted: 12:03 AM, July 9th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

But most of all I miss not thinking about his cheating. I miss back then, when my thoughts were filled with Dr. Appt. sports practices and what I needed to pick up for dinner. When my head was filled with nothing..well, nothing about cheating or lies and betrayal. I miss being kiss hello. I miss being kissed goodbye. I miss being kissed in general. I miss not being filled with self hate and doubt. I miss being able to enjoy life. I miss being happy inside. I miss feeling content and safe. I hate now. I am filled with hate, suspicion and resentment. I feel like i am trapped in a bad lifetime movie. I just want to yell "fuck you!!" To every person I see. I am afraid sometimes instead of a hi or hello...i will blurt out FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FFFFFUUUUCCCKKK YYYYYOOOUUUUUUUUUU! Sorry

Wh-32 yrs old then, now 37
bs-(me)33 yrs old then, now 38
2 teens and a dog
Mow- our realtor, 45 then, now 50
1st D-day EA w/mow our realtor 4-?-2007, 2nd D-day PA w/ same mow 5-29-2010
3rd D-day waitress he went home with 6-2010

Posts: 1152 | Registered: Jul 2010 | From: Pacific Northwest
Member # 34827
Default  Posted: 1:06 AM, July 9th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I feel the same way. Sometimes I can't remember what is,was like to not be suspicious . I no longer trust my own judgement. Geez I can't even order off of a restaurant menu without 2nd guessing. I'm cranky and irritated. Some days I want to grab him and not let him leave, other days I want to kick him in the balls. I miss normal.
Been with him over half my life
DD1 10-01-09 DD2 02-12-12 discovered it never ended
OW..nothing special. Just your average skank

Posts: 5728 | Registered: Feb 2012 | From: midwest
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Default  Posted: 1:11 AM, July 9th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Oh I know what you mean. I miss all those things too. It's so hard to feel like a completely different person than you once were.

I miss the sense of normalcy.

Him 36.
3 little girls.
He ruined our lives. Currently married and trying to make the best life for my children. There is no hope for us but I have hope for them.

Posts: 713 | Registered: Jan 2011 | From: Not Portland, Oregon... But close
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Default  Posted: 8:52 AM, July 9th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


You can call me NIK

This is it. The darkest day. The blackest hour. Chin up, shoulders back. Let's see what we're made of, you and I.
- The Doctor

Posts: 32608 | Registered: Aug 2011
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Default  Posted: 8:58 AM, July 9th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I miss being held. By anyone. He doesn't hold me. The kids - teenagers - don't hug me. Sometimes when I see my brother in law, I give him an extra long hug. When he looks at me with a question mark, like, "What's wrong?", I just say I was needing a hug.

Recently my 13 year old dog died. She drowned in our pool. It was my fault. She was blind and went outside - on the other side of the house - to pee. I should have watched her every minute.

After it happened, I was curled up in a ball, sobbing for hours. Not one of my boys, or my husband 'held' or hugged me. (I did get a sympathy card...yes...a card...from them the next day.)

I don't know how a person can see someone in such pain and do NOTHING.

Sorry for the t/j, but I was trying to express that I know what you are feeling. Just to be 'back', before all of this was happening.

"Noone can make you feel inferior without your concent." Eleanor Roosevelt

I will not be vanquished. Rose Kennedy

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