You need to be tested for STD's...so does he.
It sounds like he gave you a very watered down version of the truth..and you didnt find anything more until you recovered his texts. So,he has no problem hiding things from you...and won't admit anything unless there is hard evidence.
My WH cheated on me....he was never late from work..always called during his breaks...never spent any time away from me,unless he was at work..and he works a set shift,same hours,every day. Never had any clue he was cheating...he was doing it during work..the 10 minutes he was late one night? Traffic. That's right..10 minutes was all it took.
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
that "nothingness" you feel is normal. sometimes it's call the plain of lethal flatness (more info on it can be found in the healing library, upper left corner link). it can be the brains way of going into survival mode, concentrating on the basics you need to do to get through the day. or even a "safe mode" when the emotions/thoughts are just too much to deal with at the time.
thing is, while the numbness (or lack of a better word, cause I know that doesn't quite describe it) can serve a purpose, it's not healthy to stay in that state for a long time. those emotions and feelings will still be there and it's best to try to deal with them, process them, experience them... even though they hurt and they suck.
chances are you'll start to "feel" sooner or later. be ready, it is a rollercoaster.
Anyway I talked to some friends today and feel a little more myself again, and less like I'm hiding a gigantic secret. He has more IC and has started the job search. It sure rains when it pours.