This is only the beginning. You are just coming off a huge trauma and you are going to need a lot of time to process this. There will be anger, sadness, rage and every other emotion out there running through your body for the next 6 months...and when you think you are done it will start up again. It's a roller coaster and it's just the start.
I hope you have gotten yourself into IC and your H has found his own.
At only a month out R isn't even something I would be considering. You both have a lot of work ahead and your husband has some heavy lifting to do.
Take care of you, feel these feelings and don't rush through things.
Take your time.
Finally this is R 8/14/13
"Forgiving is a journey; the deeper the wound, the longer the journey".
Is this normal?? Is it just a step in this whole shitty process?? Maybe I am rushing myself!
Yes, yes, and yes you are. You need to accept these as cycles in the healing process.
Millions of hugs to you.
D-Day, June 10, 2012