thank you yes
I am 180 Ing starting again now
and I am just moving on
it is so hard cause moving on doesnt get me the family work or personal dynamics I want .
since February I have been through
1. I don't love you enough so I am going to persue the Ow
2. having the OW showing up like she belonged at my work several times
3 she threatened to call the police and get a restraining order cause I knocked on WH appartment door and she was there
4 she laughed at me
5 she took work emails and used them to bad mouth me to my clients
6 it was DD anniversary
7 it was first sons birthday not doing family birthday
8 he took OW to my sons ball game now I feel like a freak going
7 he promised the people at work he was done with OW and would prove it to save our work situation and then didn't
8 he told me he wants to keep OW on face book no matter how it makes me feel
9 he slept with her many times since he told me they broke up
10 he let her stay at his appartment
11 he invited her to a family wedding but didn't go after all
12 he messed up out summer weeks with the kids and told me it would all work out
13 he promised me the world almost every day from may till yesterday and didn't do anything
14 when I asked for why he walked away and didn't call me back cause I was yelling
I have so many signs every day that he is not a good man and somehow I can't figure out how to be happy without him
how messed up is that
ha ha
I obviously have some issues with rejection
I don't like it at all and I am reacting like a baby over a year later
thanks I know you are right