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I just read your brief profile. It sounds like you are just starting to deal with what is going on. It can be very overwhelming initally. Focus on you. Make sure you are getting the 3 basics. Eating, Sleeping, and staying hydrated. If you are having trouble with those call your Dr. Many of us have to find better living through chemistry in the early days.
Read in the healing library over there on the left side of your screen.
Know that many of us here have been there, done that. It hurts like hell we know. When you are ready share, ask questions, and know that you are safe here. No one wants to hurt you.